2025

When I was younger, I hated my body as much as I was obsessed by images of “Nature”. On the one hand, I told myself they were sublime, and that’s why they existed, and on the other, I felt that as a woman, if people didn’t look at me, I’d disappear. The film runs around my character’s experience. Initially fascinated by images, then by their bulimic production, my gaze changes, questioning myself and asking : why I made images of nature ?
 A succession of sequences illustrating various forms of representation of nature, such as wildlife films, Natural parks and zoos, are set in motion around my personal experience as a wildlife filmmaker,visual artist, ornithologist, woman and body.

In Spring 2022 Masha prepares to leave her homeland. It turns into chain of unexpected farewells: her mom dies of cancer, her lover flees army conscription, everything including her own old self is falling apart. Her way to cope with the grief is to fixate everything with her camera. Her anger guides her to inner emigration to the local underground scene, which became an escape for youth. This kaleidoscope of shards chronicles not only spirit of the time, but the director’s personality crumbling against the backdrop of global turmoil.